sniff the pits

Yoo. This is just a really weird rant. The last two paragraphs are in honor of SlutWalk.

I don't even know what I'm talking about. EW I just drank luke warm milk and it's literally so disgusting I actually want to barf it up. Ew that was so nasty.

The other day/yesterday, in Health and Wellness class, we were talking about what we'd like to talk about (ha). We were also talking about offending people with what we wear, and I was just like, "aw fucking ey." Like, if you wear a shirt that says, like, "DIE REPUBLICANS" obviously that's offensive, but to me, wearing a shirt that has a few swear words on it is entirely not offensive at all. My super best friend Natalie who is awesome, was all like, "How are you supposed to even know what's offensive if we're told to suppress everything we believe in," which is just too genius for words. My school doesn't have a dress code, other than the obvious of like, don't come to school naked, don't promote drugs/alcohol, etc, so I feel like it's really hypocritical of them to tell us we can't wear "offensive clothing" when there aren't even guidelines as to what "offensive" is. I think if a person wears a shirt that expresses an opinion, they have the right to wear it. And OH MY GOD. In middle school, they were like "Your skirts can only be 4 inches above your knee, because otherwise it's distracting for your male classmates AND your male teachers." Um, EXCUSE ME? First of all, don't teach children to be ashamed of their bodies, or that they need to cover up their bodies because the human body is "distracting." Like, what shit heads. Not only that, but WHAT A FUCKING DOUBLE STANDARD. They tell US GIRLS, that we can't show "too much leg/boobage," and yet it's TOTALLY OKAY for guys to sag. I'm not saying guys shouldn't be allowed to sag, I'm saying if girls have to "cover up," then guys should too. I can't wait to bitch slap half the teachers in my middle school. They sucked fucking shit. Obviously there are boundaries, but just SHUT YOUR FACES UGHHH. And ALSO, distracting male teachers? NASTY TO THE EXTREME, EXCUSE ME? HOW NASTY IS THAT? Oh, and then they were all like, "no cleavage." Well, excuse me if some girls have big boobs. Does that mean they need to wear turtlenecks? WHAT IS WRONG WITH SOCIETY?!?!?!?!?!

I'm trying to get back into doing outfit posts and stuff, but my outfits are really boring. I'm just getting really into art as well as doing well in school, and although I love fashion and clothes, I'm sort of tired of experimenting and wearing crazy shit, feeling awkward and uncomfortable, and blah. I completely admire and love the people who are so outgoing with the things they wear, and I've always been like "be like tavi, be fearless" but I feel awkward wearing these really crazy ensembles that don't express who I am. I think I'm just going to allow myself to just naturally fall into step with my style. I think fashion and self expression are beyond important, but I'm also figuring out that there are other ways of expressing yourself other than through getting dressed, such as art and expressing your beliefs and opinions in situations. Like, the other day, my friends and I were talking about how this guy was facebook stalking my friend, and we were just laughing at how it was kinda funny, and then my friend was like "It's okay for girls to facebook stalk, and like really old photos of people, but guys can't do that." And I just said "Well that's a gross double standard."

I also feel like it's really hard to like... express to people why slut shaming is wrong. My friends were talking about how this girl at our school had had sex with this one guy multiple times, they weren't even friends, blah blah, and how she was such a slut. And like, how are you supposed to be like "don't slut shame," because some people may not understand what slut shaming is. It was also annoying because the guy she was having sex with was having sex with the girl just as many times as she was having sex with him, OBVIOUSLY, and yet my friends didn't even blink an eye. I think blogging and Rookie have opened my eyes to so many double standards and so much sexism (and it's sad, because girls can we sooooo sexist towards other girls!) and it's just like, how do you explain to people why it's so wrong?

photo via whitekaffir.tumblr.com

dusk

Dusk is definitely my favorite time of the 24 hour time frame. I love it because everything looks faded/muted/quiet/eery/nostalgic/thevirginsuicides-y/peaceful/perfect/THE BEST.

I took some cool (yes, cool) pictures of my backyard that are moderately crappy, but COOL. The shitty quality was INTENTIONAL, let me tell you. INTENTIONAL. I was going for all the vibes your receiving. Vibes of like, you know... high quality artsiness. I then took some pictures of the wonderful clutter living happily underneath my window, which consists of VHS tapes via my childhood that I love and plan to rewatch soon, my Gibson guitar that my dad gave me from when HE WAS MY AGE and which I seriously plan to relearn how to play soon, along with my sea glass collection that is being stored in empty milk bottles. I wish all milk was sold in bottles rather than cartons. The bottles make me feel like I'm living the dream life of a girl from the 1960's, or like I'm in Bye Bye Birdy or the original Twilight Zone episodes or Harry Potter! And I love that super cool cream mustache you get when you decide to rebel and be badass and drink STRAIGHT OUT OF THE MILK BOTTLE and since bottled milk is HELLA authentic with the cream at the top and the bottle and the milk and stuff, life just rocks.

Also, I made a Pottermore when it first opened (YES, I was able to steal the clue answer from my friend and submit it and get early access it's really true i did and i'm a Gryffindor and i feel spectacular!) and it's THE BOMB. I finished the exploration of the first book in like, 2 days. I've literally been waiting HALF A YEAR meaning SIX MONTHS for the second book to be available for exploration. I can't be this patient. I just can't be. J.K Rowling/Soni and Co., get a move on or feel the wrath of my Liger and me. My username is Runestone209 so you should add me so we can party it up together.

PS: I'm going to start doing more outfit posts soon. I've just been feeling like my outfits have been extremely pathetic and not post/photograph worthy, so hopefully that changes soon meaning hopefully my outfits start unsucking so I can photograph them and my blog can look cooler.