mary janes

Hello Hello Hello!!
How's life everyone?
Lately, my life has consisted of school, friends, tumblr, and food.

I kind of love school. I just love being around everyone and making friends and having so many people to talk to all the time. I can't imagine just staying home everyday, I'd get so bored! Even on the weekends, I'm out 2/3 days usually. Then again though, I do love being by myself sometime's, and just making cool stuff and listening to music and watching TV.

I haven't really done a blog post in a really long time. It's because recently I've been taking most of my pictures on my film camera and I haven't had the chance to develop my film yet! I can't decide if I should get a disk, prints, or both. Both costs like, $15 and I don't know if I want to spend that much. I could just scan all the prints, but that would take a while. I think I'll just do that though, because I love having tangible memories.

Some photos of what I wore to school a few days ago. I realize now it would have looked awesome with my Bikini Kill pleather jacket. If you notice my feet/shoes, you will see some incredible black Doc Marten mary janes. You probably recognize them from other posts. I got them for my birthday in May and I kind of love them more than anything in the entire world. I think I'll wear them until the day I die.

My style has been evolving really weirdly. I'm obsessed with environmental-looking outfits, as in lot's of browns and rusts and reds and neutral colors, as well as flowy shirts and woven fabrics and brown beads and shells and wintery coats for warmth, as well as vintage and quirkiness and stuff. What I'm currently doing at school is a perfect representation of my style, since I'm in the Environmental Club and doing costumes for the school play. Wahoo, life!

I'm also getting really interested in photography and film. I think I'm going to make a short film soon, just for the heck of it. I don't think it'll be scripted or anything, but mainly just me creepily watching people and documenting what they do, and/or filming my friends, and/or actually writing a script of SOME sort, and just doing something funky and fun!! I'll probably include/do it with my amazing friend Maya who is kind of my other half!

For a while/earlier this year, I didn't really care about dressing really crazy and stuff, I was just too lazy, but now I'm really focused on dressing fun and just loving what I wear and feeling all unique!

so whateva cya layta.

longing 4 johnny

So to everyone who read my last post, THANK YOU TIMES A MILLION! It sparked such an interesting conversation and such a wide span of ideas and opinions in the comments section. It was so great reading everything you guys had to say. If you haven't already, you may just want to go and read the comments if you haven't seen them all yet.

I feel like my blog is kind of an art/fashion/philosophy blog. Practically all my posts entwine my opinion on SOMETHING, and how said thing pisses me off or inspires me or is total crap. School literally just started a week ago and I've already had one panic attack and it SUCKED BALLZ. I feel like my parents have been treating me like I'm this tedious object prone to explosion because of it, and it's so annoying. Like, I'm fine. And lately I've literally just been like a machine, drawing and collaging and making SO MUCH STUFF. It's kind of like catharsis for me; it's just hella therapeutic. And I've literally been on a pepper drawing rampage. It's weird!!!! I just LOVE drawing peppers. I also really like drawing weird looking people, like below. I'm probably capable of drawing a much more realistic portrait of a person, but I'm too lazy to try. I also like big features and messiness in art and imperfections, because imperfections just humanize everything.

And also, one thing that bothers me about fashion and style in general, is that how you dress defines you. If you wear booty shorts and crop tops, you're labeled as a slut. If you dress nerdy, you're a nerd, etc. It sucks how society views fashion and the ways in which fashion is associated with one's character and personality. If I wear booty shorts and a crop top it's BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE IT. It's not because I'm trying to look hot4boys. If I wear long skirts and look matronly, I'M NOT A MOTHER. I'm just wearing clothes that look cool. If I'm lazy I'm not even gonna TRY looking cool in any way because I'm just not feeling it and I don't care. Clothes shouldn't define a person, and yet they seem to. Like, what the fuck society.

ALSO ALSO: LISTEN TO THE PLAYLIST IT'S BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING AND IS JUST PERRREEEFFFFCCTTTT SLSL:KHGLDK:HGDLK:HG I LOVE IT. YOU WILL LOVE IT. YOU NEED TO LISTEN TO IT.

I don't really like this one. I'll probably change it.

alexander mcqueen

I am a huge fan of Alexander McQueen. His designs are just so beautiful and magical and they really make you feel and develop all these vibes and connections to other things. His suicide really makes me sad. It's still so unreal and weird to actually remember he isn't here anymore. He was the first designer that I actually claimed to be my favorite designer, and a designer that I felt expressed my most inner most thoughts and feelings through his clothes. It's tragic and confusing and it's still so hard for me to wrap my head around. His designs are still so expressive of his aesthetic, which in some ways is reassuring that his spirit is still "here," which I'm cringing at writing because it just sounds so cliché and contrived, but I dunno. I feel like his spirit is still roaming and influencing the world. I believe in spirits. I know I'm really late with this collection but I just haven't really been sure what to make of it. The clothes are so perfect and more like sculptures to me than anything else and I know my analysis is semi-stupid but I like the ideas I came up with and I think my interpretation of the collection is accurate of the clothes. 

I love all the volume in this collection (Fall 2012 RTW.) I think the volume represents freedom and escape and exploration. Sort of like self growth and discovery. The sunglasses are representative of a persons bubble I guess, kind of protecting them from the outside world, and also that little voice in your head that prevents you from taking risks because of the fear of falling and getting hurt. All the texture, i.e. ruffles, pom poms, sequins, tulle, and the prints (see red dress) represent  what makes a person unique and special. It's what makes a person stand out, along with what allows a person to have their own perspective on the world. The fact that the collection is so cohesive yet each outfit has so many aspects and details that differentiate it from the collection as a whole represents society and people in general. We are all unique individuals, but no matter how hard we try to stand out we are still all connected.

riot grrrl vibes part 2

So, after like two months, I have finally gotten around to writing the second riot grrrl vibes post! I'm really excited, because I have so much amazing stuff to show you guys, whether it be art, photography, collages, or like, question answering type things, like the second photo which I love dearly and want to glue to my life! Due to my eternal laziness and lack of organizational skillz, I happened to lose like, every possible source for all these photos. I CAN tell you that the majority (meaning like, 98%) are from this awesome tumblr devoted to feminism and being FUCKING AMAZING, but I don't have the creators/genius beings behind this awesome shit you're about to stare at. So go check out the tumblr, because it's the part of yourself you've been searching for all your life.

On a different note, I literally just finished watching this Disney movie called Radio Rebel (I think that's what it's called... one sec, let me go and confirm this. YUP I'M RIGHT) and it's about this hella shy girl with zero confidence who secretly has this radio show where she inspires her fellow teenage citizens of Hoover High School to be themselves and be bold and all that awesome crap, but struggles with being as confident in her day to day life as she is when she is the fab Radio Rebel (duh.) And then all this other stuff happens, blah blah, and of course the classic Disney plot of protagonist=super in love with person they don't think they can EVER be with, but of course, they end up together and all that cheesy goodness (we need more crackers!) Anyway, MOVING ON. 

So watching this super awesome/inspiring Disney movie got me thinking, like, HEY! Maybe I should start a radio show/podcast, because it looks super fun and cool, and maybe along the way the guy I'm secretly in love with (*cough* Justin Bieber *cough*) will finally see how awesome I am and then he'll ask me to MORP! J-play, guyz. HA. HA. J-play...

Do any of you great humans who read my blog have any online platform recommendations for doing this? I found this one website called Spreaker (it was the first one I clicked on when I googled all this shit up) but I don't know if it's super awesome compared to some other websites. If any of you guys have advice or website recommendations that are free and easy to use and allow you to talk and play music and all that fun stuff, lemme know in ze comments! I've never heard of any Riot Grrrl radio shows/stations in my area, so I'm going to Be My Own Hero and make my own! I want to do it online because that way, if I actually find enjoyment in doing radio stuff and people actually end up listening, I will be able to become MORE FAMOUS by allowing the entire world to have access to my awesome soon-to-be radio show! DUH, because fame, you dingos, is EVERYTHING. Am I right? Yeah, I'm right. (sarcasm because I'm wrong!)

But seriously! It looks hella fun! And like, I have swag! And like... I love feminism! And like... I also love Riot Grrrl, the feminist music movement of the 90s! So like, hey! Maybe I should start my own feminist/Riot Grrrl-esque radio show! So yeah, I'm seriously thinking about doing this. I think it would be super fun, and if I became somewhat skilled at this trade (hence, speaking) maybe I'd meet some other Riot Grrrl nerds and we'd fall into friend crush love and I'd be able to bond with people who have similar interests as I! But seriously, I think it would be super cool to do this. Like, a feminist/Riot Grrrl music radio show?! Holy piss nugget! That would make my life! It would take some time to get used to hearing my voice on a recording, but I'm sure I'd get used to it! Would anybody else be completely in love with a Riot Grrrl/feminism themed radio show? Please EMAIL me if you have advice/ideas/the desire to flip a shit over email about how excited you are about this possibility, hence anything that is more discussion-esque than a simple comment that I will read and love.

glitter is like sex for virgins

TRUE THAT.

 

Preach it.

I want this soooooo bad. Utter perfection and beauty.

I'm tryin'!

zines and magazines, hence feminism and feminists and tangible objects

MAGAZINES SUCK. Like, seriously? I hate Seventeen magazine. It's seriously such a piece of crap vomit that it's not even worthy of being ITALICIZED. In fact, my new favorite hobby is spitting on it and chewing up the pages and then letting my stomach acid digest them further before I barf them up because they're too disgusting to actually digest so then I stomp them into the dirt and poop on them, because unlike Seventeen, I care about important stuff! Like the environment, and good, organic fertilizer! Seventeen is seriously the worst piece of butt hole ever. Can I just smack the magazine in the face and injure it? Really, I can?!?!?! Okay. *Punches magazine super hard and makes it BLEED because all humans have the capability of punching the same and I can punch like a man and a man can punch like me because we both punch HARD.*

I'm in desperate need of some cool feminist zines and magazines that are awesome. I'm already a huge fan of Rookie, but I want something tangible! Something I can sniff and hold and cradle like a baby in times of need! Something I can tack to my wall or put in my "Special Items and Tangible Objects I Deeply Care for and Cherish with all my Heart" box. Something that inspires me to be brave and be a feminist and appreciate and love who I am and brush away a few insecurities here or there!

Does anybody have a free or inexpensive zine they sell or giveaway for free? Or any awesome magazine recommendations that are about women EMPOWERMENT rather than attempting to conform women and girls to be stupid societal shit? And I also would really like some cool fashion magazine recommendations that don't suck. I've heard of Shameless magazine, which seems kind of cool, but it also seems a bit more adult, and I'm not sure my level of maturity would be equal to that of the maturity level of Shameless magazine. I've been trying to get some Sassy's off ebay but they're just so dang expensive! And I'm so dang broke! So yeah, any recommendations or generous people* out there are much appreciated and welcome to share their wisdom of awesome magazines or zines about feminism! Cool fashion/artsy magazine recommendations that don't suck are also welcome because I love art and fashion magazines that are about the ART and the FASHION and AESTHETICS rather than stupid stuff that sucks.

If anybody wants to do a swap of some sort, I'm open to that too! I've been trying to make a zine but it's coming along slowly, so I'd have to send you other cool stuff.

Also, I recently got some vintage National Geographic magazines that are BEAUTIFUL. One is from the 1930s, and the other is from the 1950s, and I'm going to post pictures ASAP. They are seriously the most beautiful things in the world! I want to kiss them and hold them and lick them and devour their pages with my mind!

*generous people, hence people that give cool gals (like me) free stuff because they're just so GENEROUS *wink wink.* (I LOVE FREE STUFF!!! [being subtle])

Also, I will be continuing my riot grrrl posts/riot grrrl inspiration/inspirational photos posts asap! Part 2 is on the way! 

Look at this awesome feminist collage I found here! I think it's so awesome and pretty! Laurie Simmons rocks life!

look i have bowling shoes!

Please, take a minute here. I, for one, am at a loss for words. So let's all just take a pause here to really stare at and appreciate the beauty of these three pairs of shoes.

Okay that's enough.

LOOK AT THESE SHOES OH MY GOD I CANNOT HANDLE THIS MADNESS I LOVE THEM ALL SO MUCH HOLY CRAP! Look, the pair in the middle are actually BOWLING SHOES! They actually have the 6 on the back, because they are, in fact, a size 6! They are bowling shoes that I actually wear, and actually love, and actually bought at a thrift store for only twelve dollars! THIS IS INSANITY. And not only are these bowling shoes incredibly unique and stylish and awesome, but now I can go bowling in MY OWN SHOES! Goodbye, smelly/used/dirty/sweaty/gross/fungus infected bowling shoes of the bowling company, and hello to bowling shoes of my very own! I can now dance and glide and throw balls down a lane in the comfort of my own shoes! Life is life!

The mary janes are DOC MARTENS. How cool?!?!?!!??! ASKFH:AHUDGH I love them so much, and I actually wear them like, practically everyday! They are so comfortable and blister inducing free! They are the peanut butter to my jelly, fokes! They are the answer to my prayers!

The maroon Doc Martens are also BEAUTIFUL. I love them so much! But they gave me HORRIBLE blisters the first time I wore them. Any tips on how to wear them without shredding your skin off? I've only worn them once, but they look awesome and they don't make my feet look huge. I love them.

I feel complete now that I have my Doc Martens and my bowling shoes! What a wonderful life. By far the nicest shoes I've ever owned, too! HAPPINESS IS A REALITY!

creatures of the wind

I recently stumbled upon this AMAZING designing duo, Shane Gabier and Chris Peters, who are the genius behind the label Creatures of the Wind. I've never felt such a strong connection to any design label before, and I immediately fell in love with their Fall 2012 Ready-to-Wear collection. I loved how it was so surreal and magical, but was full of badass and hardcore fairy-witch vibes rather than the typical magical vibes of "fragile cotton candy butterfly fairy who can die if you sneeze on her." I also loved all the deconstructed (was kind of getting some color blocking vibes but with patterns) looks and clothes, and how there were words written on the shirts and shawls which is awesome because it just makes the clothes even more intriguing. Not to mention there were collars on practically EVERYTHING. I was totally digging the longer skirt action, too. I'm so glad knee-length skirts are making a comeback, because I love them more than anything and it has been a challenge trying to hunt some interesting ones down at Goodwill when the world seems obsessed with mini skirts and hot pants (which is totally fine, just not my thing.) I was in LOVE with all the deconstructed plaid collared shirts. They are too beautiful to be called "flannels" so I am going to try and think of a worthy title to give them. I honestly could just go on and on about how I love every single little detail in all of these clothes, like the lace detail on the shoulders, the plaid dress with the sweater, the neon shoe straps, the Stephen King vibes that make it all the better, and the fact that a Bernard Herrmann song would go perfectly with the aura of the entire collection.

photos from vogue.com

And lastly, I'd like to add a picture of me being witchy, in spirit of all these ethereal, haunting vibes floating around. I took this while alone in my bedroom, at night, when I was in the mood to channel my undiscovered Salem Witch Trial ancestors.